Thank you all for your kind words and thoughts regarding my upcoming loss milestone. I am doing ok...a little anxious from time to time, but my amazing doctors have been lifesavers. I truly believe in less capable hands, by now I would have either been experiencing my third loss, or at the very least be insane with worry and anxiety. My weekly appointments have given me so much reassurance, and I feel a lot of hope.
Now onto a bit of a sad anniversary....it was one year ago today that I took a pregnancy test and it told me my little girl was on her way. I cannot believe it's been a year already. Even more scary than that, in just 4.5 short months, when Boo arrives, it will have been a year since we lost Kayla. It will be bittersweet. I was so happy to see those two pink lines....I even sat on the news for a couple hours because I just couldn't believe it. Finally when I looked at the tests and could see the lines without crossing my eyes, I decided to tell my husband. I left a note that said second time's a charm? and some U of M baby booties on the table for him to find. As it turns out, the second time wasn't a charm, and those booties were buried with our sweet little girl. But I will never regret any of it. Despite all of the pain and heartache, Kayla was and will always be the best part of my life in her short time with us, and I cannot wait to see her and hold her again one day.
Ok, now that I am crying at my desk at 9am, let's talk about some good news. Upon returning from maternity leave last spring, I got an email saying that our usual 12 weeks off was being reduced to 6 weeks. This upset me greatly....since I will be a working mother, I'll get precious little time with my baby as it is. My dad gets to be the one to spend all day with her, and probably see her first steps and hear her first words...I'll get the little time in the evenings before I feed and bathe her and put her to bed. I am grateful for my dad, and I trust him completely, but the idea of leaving Boo at just 6 weeks and going back to work was horrible, though I was thankful to have something as I know some people don't get any paid time off.
If all went well and I didn't need bed rest, meaning I would get my full 6 weeks once Boo is here, I was still hoping to take the 12, but of course I would only be paid for 6. But I got a newsletter today about the proposed change to maternity leave, and the announcement that it has been decided that the company will keep the paid bonding time, above what is medically necessary upon giving birth. I do not know the details because the link won't open, but I am assuming that means they're going back to the old plan where I would get 12 weeks off at 90% pay.
This makes me sooooo happy. So if I were to go on leave around Boo's due date at the end of March, I'll be off work until about mid-June. That's so awesome....the six weeks I had after Kayla went pretty fast, and that was spend mostly sleeping and laying around the house. I cannot even imagine how quick six weeks would go by being sleep deprived and trying to adjust to a newborn baby. I'll update when I know the details.
Update:
So I got the details on the change to maternity leave. They did reinstate the bonding time, so now I would be eligible for 12 weeks instead of 6. However it all depends on when I go on leave. Because I just took leave last March, I'll have to go on leave next year after I went this year in order to get new time. So if I go on March 24 or sooner, I get 6 weeks paid, but if I go March 25th or after I get 12 weeks paid; my due date is March 22. So needless to say I'm hoping she comes a little late. I'm taking 12 weeks regardless, but when I go into labor will depend on if I get paid for 6 or 12. Of course it would be great if I got paid for the whole thing, but if not we'll just have to take it out of savings. I'm just glad I have the job protection for that whole time, that was what I was most worried about. So she'll come when she comes, and whatever happens happens.
On another note, I was going to go maternity coat shopping on Sunday. I hate to buy a new coat for just one year, but I cannot zip or button any of my current coats and it's gotten really cold outside. I thought I could deal since I'm always so hot, but not so much, it's freaking cold. I picked up my inlaws from the airport tonight and then came in to visit for a while and I mentioned needing a coat. So my MIL whips out this adorable coat and it is big enough for now with some room to grow. Then she starts going through the closet and gets me a scarf which was really cute as well, and gloves, lol. So now my Sunday afternoon is open and I didn't spend a dime!
Thursday, November 14, 2013
Tuesday, November 12, 2013
Famous Cervix- 21 wks 5 days
My cervix is going to be famous! After my fetal echo today, they did the vaginal to measure my cervix, and my doctor came in and just did my appt from there so she could see the ultrasound results. She requested a few pictures so she can take them to a lecture she's doing later so a whole room full of people will get to look at my cervix, haha.
So I was pretty on edge last night, I got pretty crampy out of nowhere and it stuck around for a little while, and my discharge picked up some. I've also been so tired, ever since we got home from Vegas I just fall asleep everywhere, my head bobbing wakes me up, only to doze off again a few seconds later. The extreme fatigue, increased discharge and cramping were all present a few days before I went into labor. But, I think some of the fatigue is just normal pregnancy exhaustion that comes and goes, and I might still be trying to recover from jet lag and time change.
While the discharge was noticeable, it wasn't thick and snot-like, as it was last time, and the cramps went away after about an hour. But being just days away from the point I went into pre-term labor last time, I guess I am understably extra nervous. I was very happy for my appointmet this morning....first I had my fetal echo just to give Boo's heart a better look since I was diagnosed with GD so early. She was doing yoga again this morning, she's obsessed with her feet....she's always got her feet up around her head, probably trying to suck her toes. I guess it probably gets boring in there, not much else to do.
So while the tech was waiting for her to roll over so she could see her heart, she re-checked a few things and said her brain looks absolutely perfect as does her spine. I can never hear those things enough. Of course we would want her and love her so much no matter what, but I had this huge fear that while this pregnancy would be successful, there would be something wrong with her whereas perfectly healthy Kayla didn't make it.
So she passed the heart exam with flying colors, and she is now weighing one pound, which is just slightly behind Kayla who was 1 pound 1.6 ounces....but there is a very good chance she could catch up, and even pass that up in the next few days. She could see the cervix from the abdominal ultrasound but she said she'd ask the doctor if she wanted her to do the vaginal one as well. When she came in, she said it's up to me. At first I said it was fine, she could see that it was measuring 4.7 cm....but then I decided, with the milestone coming up and the fact that we're announcing to the world this weekend, I had better just get the other one done too. My "highs" from a good appointment do not last long, so the added reassurance will be appreciated in a few days I think.
Last week my cervix was measuring 4.2 cm, down from 5.0 the week before. They said it is normal to fluctuate and as long as it is above 2.5 they don't worry, but I was happy to see it lengthened some this week. Most likely, it shortened some due to all the walking we did in vegas, and then lengthened back out since I've been a couch potato since we got home. I asked my doctor, since my measurements have all been good, does that mean I didn't have an IC, or is it just that the cerclage is doing its job, but she couldn't say either way for sure. She said they didn't have enough evidence to say I had one to begin with, but she wasn't confident in bypassing the cerclage, and there isn't a lot of studies done on it because once it is determined that someone likely needs a cerclage, they're probably not going to go through a pregnancy again without it to see if it holds up on its own.
That makes sense....I'd rather not have a difinitive answer, than to not have tried and had the same result as last time. But it sounds like if we do this again, I'll definitely get another cerclage, there is just no reason not to and take the risk. Maybe I am just one of those 85% that has good success rates with the cerclage. I mean, I know I am far from out of the woods, I've still got two more weeks until V day, and 5 more weeks until Boo has a 90% chance of surviving with no complications....but I am very pleased with my progress. Given the fact that 5 days before I went into pre-term labor and was dialated four centimeters and this time I have not even had any consistent, significant shortening, I would say is a very good sign.
Of course there are many factors to take into consideration, and we won't truly know until at least a year after Boo is here, but I am growing more and more confident that if we chose to, another baby after Boo may be possible. I don't know what we'll decide, but I am glad it's looking like we may at least have the option.
So I was pretty on edge last night, I got pretty crampy out of nowhere and it stuck around for a little while, and my discharge picked up some. I've also been so tired, ever since we got home from Vegas I just fall asleep everywhere, my head bobbing wakes me up, only to doze off again a few seconds later. The extreme fatigue, increased discharge and cramping were all present a few days before I went into labor. But, I think some of the fatigue is just normal pregnancy exhaustion that comes and goes, and I might still be trying to recover from jet lag and time change.
While the discharge was noticeable, it wasn't thick and snot-like, as it was last time, and the cramps went away after about an hour. But being just days away from the point I went into pre-term labor last time, I guess I am understably extra nervous. I was very happy for my appointmet this morning....first I had my fetal echo just to give Boo's heart a better look since I was diagnosed with GD so early. She was doing yoga again this morning, she's obsessed with her feet....she's always got her feet up around her head, probably trying to suck her toes. I guess it probably gets boring in there, not much else to do.
So while the tech was waiting for her to roll over so she could see her heart, she re-checked a few things and said her brain looks absolutely perfect as does her spine. I can never hear those things enough. Of course we would want her and love her so much no matter what, but I had this huge fear that while this pregnancy would be successful, there would be something wrong with her whereas perfectly healthy Kayla didn't make it.
So she passed the heart exam with flying colors, and she is now weighing one pound, which is just slightly behind Kayla who was 1 pound 1.6 ounces....but there is a very good chance she could catch up, and even pass that up in the next few days. She could see the cervix from the abdominal ultrasound but she said she'd ask the doctor if she wanted her to do the vaginal one as well. When she came in, she said it's up to me. At first I said it was fine, she could see that it was measuring 4.7 cm....but then I decided, with the milestone coming up and the fact that we're announcing to the world this weekend, I had better just get the other one done too. My "highs" from a good appointment do not last long, so the added reassurance will be appreciated in a few days I think.
Last week my cervix was measuring 4.2 cm, down from 5.0 the week before. They said it is normal to fluctuate and as long as it is above 2.5 they don't worry, but I was happy to see it lengthened some this week. Most likely, it shortened some due to all the walking we did in vegas, and then lengthened back out since I've been a couch potato since we got home. I asked my doctor, since my measurements have all been good, does that mean I didn't have an IC, or is it just that the cerclage is doing its job, but she couldn't say either way for sure. She said they didn't have enough evidence to say I had one to begin with, but she wasn't confident in bypassing the cerclage, and there isn't a lot of studies done on it because once it is determined that someone likely needs a cerclage, they're probably not going to go through a pregnancy again without it to see if it holds up on its own.
That makes sense....I'd rather not have a difinitive answer, than to not have tried and had the same result as last time. But it sounds like if we do this again, I'll definitely get another cerclage, there is just no reason not to and take the risk. Maybe I am just one of those 85% that has good success rates with the cerclage. I mean, I know I am far from out of the woods, I've still got two more weeks until V day, and 5 more weeks until Boo has a 90% chance of surviving with no complications....but I am very pleased with my progress. Given the fact that 5 days before I went into pre-term labor and was dialated four centimeters and this time I have not even had any consistent, significant shortening, I would say is a very good sign.
Of course there are many factors to take into consideration, and we won't truly know until at least a year after Boo is here, but I am growing more and more confident that if we chose to, another baby after Boo may be possible. I don't know what we'll decide, but I am glad it's looking like we may at least have the option.
Monday, November 11, 2013
Hand me downs- 21 wks 4 days
My friend who has three little girls just sent back a ton of stuff with her mom when she went to visit, and then dropped it off to me. Some of the stuff I can't use, like a bottle warmer, and some items that I honestly don't know what they are, lol. But she sent a bouncy seat, an under the sea activity mat (which we had actually registered for last time) a food grinder, some brand new bottles, a brand new bottle of prenatals (they're gummy, so probably not good for my GD, but I can take them after Boo gets here), and a three layer lazy susan filled with jars of baby food. Not to mention the two bags of the most adorable little girl dresses you've ever seen, and a baby sling.
The clothes are all 12 months, but I can't wait till they fit, they're all so cute. This one in particular will be perfect for next Christmas...she'll be about 9 months by then, but there's a very good chance it'll fit her. I'll want her to wear them all before she grows out of them, but I doubt there will be enough fancy occasions, so she's going to be very well dressed for doctor appts and trips to Target.
The best part it, whatever I can't use, can go to my dad's since he'll need things there too. Like one of the things she sent was a musical light up thing that goes on the crib....it won't go with our theme, so my dad can have it at his house. I'm excited to buy new furniture and stuff, but gently used hand me downs are awesome.
I'm starting to get nervous about this Saturday (my loss milestone). In some ways I feel good, because things have been going well. But on the other hand, everything happened within 3 or 4 days....the cramps and the increased discharge....I thought everything was fine last time too. But at least I have been getting extra monitoring, so I know that at least as of last Tuesday, everything was fine. Thank goodness I have an appointment tomorrow.
The clothes are all 12 months, but I can't wait till they fit, they're all so cute. This one in particular will be perfect for next Christmas...she'll be about 9 months by then, but there's a very good chance it'll fit her. I'll want her to wear them all before she grows out of them, but I doubt there will be enough fancy occasions, so she's going to be very well dressed for doctor appts and trips to Target.
The best part it, whatever I can't use, can go to my dad's since he'll need things there too. Like one of the things she sent was a musical light up thing that goes on the crib....it won't go with our theme, so my dad can have it at his house. I'm excited to buy new furniture and stuff, but gently used hand me downs are awesome.
I'm starting to get nervous about this Saturday (my loss milestone). In some ways I feel good, because things have been going well. But on the other hand, everything happened within 3 or 4 days....the cramps and the increased discharge....I thought everything was fine last time too. But at least I have been getting extra monitoring, so I know that at least as of last Tuesday, everything was fine. Thank goodness I have an appointment tomorrow.
Saturday, November 9, 2013
One down, several to go-21 wks 2 days
Ryan and I put together our first piece of furniture today, the glider rocker. It was so easy, the base was already together as was the foot stool, so all we had to do was attach the back, the arms and all of the cushions. It's too bad the rest of the furniture will not be as easy. The chair is ridiculously comfortable. I ran errands today and bought Boo her first book, and since we decided on monkeys I couldn't pass up the super soft monkey holding a blankie.
So when I got home I "rocked her" and read her the book. I got her Love you Forever. I read a couple of months ago that the lines "I'll love you forever, I'll like you for always, as long as I'm living, my baby you'll be" was actually inspired by the author's two stillborn children. So I thought it was the perfect first book, and as I sat there reading, I was actually reading to both of my girls.
Here is a pic of the rocker and the monkey blankie.
Don't mind the dirty carpet, once we get all the junk out of the room, I need to vacuum and shampoo the carpet. I think maybe we'll buy the crib soon....that will be sooo weird to have a crib in the house.
So I told my aunt our news today, she was really happy for us. I'm excited to get past our milestone next weekend and be able to tell the rest of the world.
Edit: And of course, it's only been together for less than 12 hours and one of my four legged babies has already discovered what a wonderful napping chair it is. I said I would kick the cats out of anything baby related, but he just looked so snuggly I couldn't do it. Now the crib is a different story, there will be no cats in the crib. I already have a fear of Vinny trying to snuggle Boo and sitting on her face.
So when I got home I "rocked her" and read her the book. I got her Love you Forever. I read a couple of months ago that the lines "I'll love you forever, I'll like you for always, as long as I'm living, my baby you'll be" was actually inspired by the author's two stillborn children. So I thought it was the perfect first book, and as I sat there reading, I was actually reading to both of my girls.
Here is a pic of the rocker and the monkey blankie.
So I told my aunt our news today, she was really happy for us. I'm excited to get past our milestone next weekend and be able to tell the rest of the world.
Edit: And of course, it's only been together for less than 12 hours and one of my four legged babies has already discovered what a wonderful napping chair it is. I said I would kick the cats out of anything baby related, but he just looked so snuggly I couldn't do it. Now the crib is a different story, there will be no cats in the crib. I already have a fear of Vinny trying to snuggle Boo and sitting on her face.
Friday, November 8, 2013
Monkeys! 21 wks 1 day
My dad and my aunt are coming over to wire our outdoor electrical boxes tomorrow. I'm excited, 4.5 years in the house and we can finally do nice outdoor lights. We've done them in years past, but plugging them in has always been a challenge. Plus with our new landscape, I'll have more things to drape lights on.
I guess my aunt will get to hear our news a week before everyone else since she'll be seeing me tomorrow. I'm sure if I don't say anything she won't either, but I am sure it's rather obvious now that I am pregnant. I doubt she'd go scream it from the rooftops, and it's only a week early so it's not a big deal.
I was thinking today how I was angry that not many people in my family have said anything about Kayla since our loss....but I think I was just looking for people to dump my anger on. My Aunt Janet came straight to the hospital as soon as she heard, and she, my Aunt Mary (the one I'll see tomorrow) and Aunt Vicki all came to the funeral home...they're the only local ones, I didn't expect anyone to take off work and drive 4 hours to come. They all got together and sent a card with money....I got a little teary thinking about it today. They care, I know they do. Not saying anything can hurt, but honestly if I weren't in this situation, I am not sure I would know that I should say something to the parents at a later date either. I really do have an amazing family.
I have to have a fetal echo done on Tuesday....they didn't see anything wrong at the a/s, but it's standard for people who were diagnosed early with GD. I was a little worried they did see something but weren't telling me, but I did some googling and it does seem to be common to GD moms to have it done. I invited my dad's girlfriend, but she's got to work. I don't mind going alone at all, but I thought she'd like to come and see Boo, which I know she does but can't get out of work. That stinks....maybe I'll ask my MIL to come. We were going to invite her to the elective 3D/4D one we're doing in January, but at the same time I'd kind of like it to be just Ryan and I. Since Ryan can't come to this one next week, it was a good time to invite someone else. We'll see.
I need to get going on Boo's room. It's painted and everything, but it's an open empty room, so junk that we don't know what to do with has crept it's way in. I need to put all of the clothes I have in the closet, and we need to put together the glider rocker and install the ceiling fan. I'm kind of stuck at home tomorrow while my dad and aunt are over, so maybe I'll work on the glider. I can't wait until we have a crib all set up, that will be surreal.
We've finally agreed on a theme. I wanted owls, I think they're so adorable, but Ryan doesn't like them. So then after seeing the shark exhibit in Vegas, we decided on under the sea. The gift shop had this adorable pink jelly fish that we bought, and I thought the rest of the animals/pictures could be found online. But no such luck, and then Ryan and I couldn't agree on real vs cartoony. I wanted to do like pink and grey animals (grey dolphins and sharks, pink fish and octopus) but he deosn't like the cartoony stuff, he wanted real looking things.
So we scraped that idea and decided on monkeys. I didn't want them at first because the colors are going to be pink and grey, and most monkey sets have pink and brown. But I found one that is mostly pink, with just the brown monkeys. Our furniture will be dark brown, so it should go nicely. I am not sure why he is ok with cartoony monkeys, but I am just glad to have decided on a theme.
I guess my aunt will get to hear our news a week before everyone else since she'll be seeing me tomorrow. I'm sure if I don't say anything she won't either, but I am sure it's rather obvious now that I am pregnant. I doubt she'd go scream it from the rooftops, and it's only a week early so it's not a big deal.
I was thinking today how I was angry that not many people in my family have said anything about Kayla since our loss....but I think I was just looking for people to dump my anger on. My Aunt Janet came straight to the hospital as soon as she heard, and she, my Aunt Mary (the one I'll see tomorrow) and Aunt Vicki all came to the funeral home...they're the only local ones, I didn't expect anyone to take off work and drive 4 hours to come. They all got together and sent a card with money....I got a little teary thinking about it today. They care, I know they do. Not saying anything can hurt, but honestly if I weren't in this situation, I am not sure I would know that I should say something to the parents at a later date either. I really do have an amazing family.
I have to have a fetal echo done on Tuesday....they didn't see anything wrong at the a/s, but it's standard for people who were diagnosed early with GD. I was a little worried they did see something but weren't telling me, but I did some googling and it does seem to be common to GD moms to have it done. I invited my dad's girlfriend, but she's got to work. I don't mind going alone at all, but I thought she'd like to come and see Boo, which I know she does but can't get out of work. That stinks....maybe I'll ask my MIL to come. We were going to invite her to the elective 3D/4D one we're doing in January, but at the same time I'd kind of like it to be just Ryan and I. Since Ryan can't come to this one next week, it was a good time to invite someone else. We'll see.
I need to get going on Boo's room. It's painted and everything, but it's an open empty room, so junk that we don't know what to do with has crept it's way in. I need to put all of the clothes I have in the closet, and we need to put together the glider rocker and install the ceiling fan. I'm kind of stuck at home tomorrow while my dad and aunt are over, so maybe I'll work on the glider. I can't wait until we have a crib all set up, that will be surreal.
We've finally agreed on a theme. I wanted owls, I think they're so adorable, but Ryan doesn't like them. So then after seeing the shark exhibit in Vegas, we decided on under the sea. The gift shop had this adorable pink jelly fish that we bought, and I thought the rest of the animals/pictures could be found online. But no such luck, and then Ryan and I couldn't agree on real vs cartoony. I wanted to do like pink and grey animals (grey dolphins and sharks, pink fish and octopus) but he deosn't like the cartoony stuff, he wanted real looking things.
So we scraped that idea and decided on monkeys. I didn't want them at first because the colors are going to be pink and grey, and most monkey sets have pink and brown. But I found one that is mostly pink, with just the brown monkeys. Our furniture will be dark brown, so it should go nicely. I am not sure why he is ok with cartoony monkeys, but I am just glad to have decided on a theme.
Wednesday, November 6, 2013
So tired- 20 wks 6 days
Today blows. I have been soooo tired all day, like head bobbing and almost hitting my desk tired. I struggled all through the morning to stay awake and get some work done, but I've been wildly unproductive all day. It's also freezing in my office, which is odd because I am usually burning up so the cold just makes me even more want to curl up someplace warm and sleep.
So at 10 minutes to 12 I scarfed my lunch down and went out to my car to sleep. I can normally sleep in my car pretty well, but today I have a low bun in, so I couldn't find a comfortable position for my head. When I first got in the car I was freezing so I blasted the heat (it's cold and rainy out too) but after about 15 minutes I was dying. I guess I feel a little rested, I don't know, we'll see when I try doing some work.
I was doing the head bob thing last night too while I was on my computer at home. Second tri is so weird....you're not dead tired all the time like first tri, but days like today just hit you out of nowhere. MH got up for work this morning but then came back to bed, saying he got a text saying no work today. I wanted to cry. It doesn't happen for him a lot, but it does happen. I would kill for a no work day, but that will never happen at my work. Even if there is a huge snowstorm, we're told to use our own judgement and use a vacation day if we need to, but we're still open.
I can't tell you how many times I've prayed for a pipe to burst or the heat to break....nothing major that will cause a huge headache, just something to get us out of work for one day. I have to go to the hospital today to pick up my syringes so I think I'll reward myself with my favorite dinner. I haven't cooked, like seriously cooked in weeks....possibly over a month. Getting take out just sounds so much more appealing these days.
No real point to this entry, I'm just putting off doing work because I'm afraid I'll fall asleep again. Boo was kicking a lot last night, I could even see them and I thought maybe I could feel a couple from the outside. I'm not sure though, when you can feel them inside it's hard to say if you're really feeling them outside....but it shouldn't be too much longer till Ryan can feel them, I can't wait for that. He never got to with Kayla; he never even got to see her kicks because the little stinker would stop doing it everytime he would look.
So at 10 minutes to 12 I scarfed my lunch down and went out to my car to sleep. I can normally sleep in my car pretty well, but today I have a low bun in, so I couldn't find a comfortable position for my head. When I first got in the car I was freezing so I blasted the heat (it's cold and rainy out too) but after about 15 minutes I was dying. I guess I feel a little rested, I don't know, we'll see when I try doing some work.
I was doing the head bob thing last night too while I was on my computer at home. Second tri is so weird....you're not dead tired all the time like first tri, but days like today just hit you out of nowhere. MH got up for work this morning but then came back to bed, saying he got a text saying no work today. I wanted to cry. It doesn't happen for him a lot, but it does happen. I would kill for a no work day, but that will never happen at my work. Even if there is a huge snowstorm, we're told to use our own judgement and use a vacation day if we need to, but we're still open.
I can't tell you how many times I've prayed for a pipe to burst or the heat to break....nothing major that will cause a huge headache, just something to get us out of work for one day. I have to go to the hospital today to pick up my syringes so I think I'll reward myself with my favorite dinner. I haven't cooked, like seriously cooked in weeks....possibly over a month. Getting take out just sounds so much more appealing these days.
No real point to this entry, I'm just putting off doing work because I'm afraid I'll fall asleep again. Boo was kicking a lot last night, I could even see them and I thought maybe I could feel a couple from the outside. I'm not sure though, when you can feel them inside it's hard to say if you're really feeling them outside....but it shouldn't be too much longer till Ryan can feel them, I can't wait for that. He never got to with Kayla; he never even got to see her kicks because the little stinker would stop doing it everytime he would look.
Tuesday, November 5, 2013
Home- 20 wks 5 days
We're home! Vegas was great, we had an awesome time. We saw some shows, Boys II Men and Gallagher, saw some exhibits, the shark exhibit, Titanic and Bodies, ate some good food, gambled a little. I was worried about being diabetic in Vegas, but for the most part I did great. On the meals I did go over, we walked so much this weekend that my bloodsugar was still great. I had just a couple bad readings, but I think all things considering I did very well.
We didn't win much, I think between what we won and lost, we netted about 20 bucks, haha, but it was fun when we won. I wanted Ryan to bet on black 24 (Kayla's birthdate) at roulette, but as we were standing there watching, getting a feel for the game, black 24 hit twice in a row! We did way more walking than I thought we would, so I was pretty tired by the time we got back to our room each night. It was pretty funny seeing all the young girls all dressed up to go out and party and drink, and here I am, happy as can be going back to our room at 10:30, ordering room service and watching a documentary on killer whales in captivity. My how things change over the years.
Our trip home was a little hairy, we got delayed by a lot, and being pregnant and cranky and my feet were swollen was not fun. I am still well within the safe zone for flying, but it was very uncomfortable and I will never do it again. I worried a little that I walked too much and that my cervix might have shortened, but I had an ultrasound today. It was 4.2cm.....last time it was 5.0, before that it was 4.4....so while it did shorten some, the tech said it's normal to flucuate, so the numbers aren't as important as the fact that I am over 3cm. So basically anything over 3cm is good, no matter if it's a little shorter than last time. And I am pretty confident that the walking shortened it a bit, and I wouldn't be surprised if it's a little longer in two weeks.
I'm very irritated, I realized tonight I am getting low on syringes and my insulin supplies are filled through the hospital pharmacy. I have an appt again in a week, but I don't have enough to make it till then, so I have to go back in a couple days to get my rx. Arg, I was just there!
After the vaginal u/s she did a quick abdominal so I could see Boo and gave me a couple of pictures. I bought a "baby's first 5 years" album the other day so I think I'll go start filling it out.
When we first got pregnant with Kayla, I was excited for her first Christmas this year and wanted to get real stockings (ie not the dollar store) with everyone's names embroidered on theirs. I am too superstitious to do one for Boo for this year, but then I thought, why not still get one for Kayla? Is that weird? I mean, she's still our daughter, it makes me sad to think of one day having a couple kids stockings hanging and not include her....but I'm not sure if we should get one for her. I know it's our house and our decision, but does anyone have any thoughts? I mean, I don't think I would be comfortable doing something like say, signing her name in Christmas cards or something, but I'm on the fence about including her in things like family stockings. Anyone else do anything like that?
We didn't win much, I think between what we won and lost, we netted about 20 bucks, haha, but it was fun when we won. I wanted Ryan to bet on black 24 (Kayla's birthdate) at roulette, but as we were standing there watching, getting a feel for the game, black 24 hit twice in a row! We did way more walking than I thought we would, so I was pretty tired by the time we got back to our room each night. It was pretty funny seeing all the young girls all dressed up to go out and party and drink, and here I am, happy as can be going back to our room at 10:30, ordering room service and watching a documentary on killer whales in captivity. My how things change over the years.
Our trip home was a little hairy, we got delayed by a lot, and being pregnant and cranky and my feet were swollen was not fun. I am still well within the safe zone for flying, but it was very uncomfortable and I will never do it again. I worried a little that I walked too much and that my cervix might have shortened, but I had an ultrasound today. It was 4.2cm.....last time it was 5.0, before that it was 4.4....so while it did shorten some, the tech said it's normal to flucuate, so the numbers aren't as important as the fact that I am over 3cm. So basically anything over 3cm is good, no matter if it's a little shorter than last time. And I am pretty confident that the walking shortened it a bit, and I wouldn't be surprised if it's a little longer in two weeks.
I'm very irritated, I realized tonight I am getting low on syringes and my insulin supplies are filled through the hospital pharmacy. I have an appt again in a week, but I don't have enough to make it till then, so I have to go back in a couple days to get my rx. Arg, I was just there!
After the vaginal u/s she did a quick abdominal so I could see Boo and gave me a couple of pictures. I bought a "baby's first 5 years" album the other day so I think I'll go start filling it out.
When we first got pregnant with Kayla, I was excited for her first Christmas this year and wanted to get real stockings (ie not the dollar store) with everyone's names embroidered on theirs. I am too superstitious to do one for Boo for this year, but then I thought, why not still get one for Kayla? Is that weird? I mean, she's still our daughter, it makes me sad to think of one day having a couple kids stockings hanging and not include her....but I'm not sure if we should get one for her. I know it's our house and our decision, but does anyone have any thoughts? I mean, I don't think I would be comfortable doing something like say, signing her name in Christmas cards or something, but I'm on the fence about including her in things like family stockings. Anyone else do anything like that?
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