Baby classes are done, so we can check that off the list. We went to an infant care class on Wednesday and then I went to the nursing class on Thursday, I gave Ryan a pass on that one. It was pretty mixed, about half couples and half just the women so at least I wasn't the only one there alone.
Both classes were really informational, especially the nursing class. I do feel a little less worried about it now.....before I was more worried about nursing than I was delivery. I know it will be different this time, but I have been through labor and delivery before so that's comforting at least. After class I asked the instructor about the fact that my milk didn't come in with Kayla but she said it's not indicitive at all that I will have problems with my supply with Boo. She said it was likely the combination of being so early and all of the stress I was under. She said even if I were to have supply issues this time around there is a lot they can do to help things.
Also got good news from my insurance company, they cover any breastpump except for the heavy duty ones which I assume means hospital grade, so it sounds like I shouldn't have any issue getting the double electric Medela. So excited, those suckers are expensive so we're very lucky to have a good one covered.
There is a childbirth class today but it's like all day so we decided to skip that one. I didn't even want to take it last time because I figured, I knew what I knew, and what I didn't know I didn't want to know. So most days, Boo is pretty mellow during the day, she kicks low and light while I'm at work, but then she puts her party shoes on and really kicks at night when I am relaxing. So she was pretty mellow both nights I had class, I think because I got home so late both nights so I was pretty much in work mode during the times I would be relaxing.
I knew this and felt ok that night, but by the next morning her lack of movement the night before started to bother me. I usually don't feel her in the morning until I am at least on my way to work, but by the time I got out of the shower I was pretty worked up and worried so I used my doppler before I went to work. Cue panic when I couldn't find her HB at first. I've barely used it since she began kicking on a regular basis, but I assumed at this point I wouldn't have to look for it, I figured she's big enough by now that I'd be able to hear it anywhere I placed the doppler.
So it was only a few seconds before I found it, but I can't even say the array of bad thoughts that flashed through my head in those few seconds. So even with the doppler my Pgal brain has been in overdrive the last few days, but last night I got home at my usual time and she did not dissapoint. It was party time again and Ryan even got to see my stomach jump finally. One of the jumps it looked like she must have completely rolled over. So I'm feeling better now.
I had a dream about her last night, she was a toddler and so giggly and we were cuddling. She was such an adorable little girl too...the bond I felt with her just in that dream was incredible. I've always loved little kids (well, most....not a huge fan of noisy annoying kids out in public) but I can't wait to experience that bond between me and my own child. I just got this overwhelming urge the other day for it to be March so we could meet her, I just cannot wait.
But in just a few weeks we're having an elective 3D ultrasound so I'm excited to get a sneak peak at her little face. I know it won't be entirely the same, but it's better than just the black and white profile on regular ultrasounds. We're inviting the grandmas to come see her....I think they're really excited. The grandpas are invited too but I am kind of hoping it won't be there thing....even though it's just my stomach, I feel like it might be a tiny bit uncomfortable to have the grandpas there, but if they want to come I don't want to deny them seeing their granddaughter. We've all been through so much pain this year, we deserve some blessings.
Saturday, December 14, 2013
Tuesday, December 10, 2013
Monday, December 9, 2013
The stork brought a present- 25 wks 4 days
There is a crib in our house! It's still in the box, but it's still here regardless. I'm dying to go rip into the box and put it together, but I need to clean some clutter out of the nursery, and it's probably a good idea to vacuum and shampoo the carpet before the crib is assembled.
I noticed it when I got up this morning....er afternoon (I called in today, stupid cold) and the brand name of the crib is Storkcraft, so I looked in the yard to see this big box that said Stork on it, haha.
And now for some cuteness, here is my kitty Vinny snuggling with Boo. She kicked a few times while he was there, but he didn't seem to notice.
I noticed it when I got up this morning....er afternoon (I called in today, stupid cold) and the brand name of the crib is Storkcraft, so I looked in the yard to see this big box that said Stork on it, haha.
And now for some cuteness, here is my kitty Vinny snuggling with Boo. She kicked a few times while he was there, but he didn't seem to notice.
Saturday, December 7, 2013
Should I just dump my food straight into the toilet?-25 wks 2 days
I'm so tired of throwing up. All through out this pregnancy, except for when I had the norovirus or whatever that was, I threw up about once a week. Once I was well into second tri, it lessened to about once every one to two weeks, but it seems to be picking up again lately. Today was the third time this week.
Not that I enjoy throwing up, but it's over pretty quick...the nausea hits and either goes away quickly or I throw up and it's done. But there is so much pressure on my face when I puke, the blood vessels in my face break so I am all blotchy for a few days after. It kind of looks like I have a 5 o'clock shadow all over my face. I thought maybe it was the pop. When I first was diagnosed with GD I gave up the pop since one can has the same amount of carbs that I can have for a meal. But I'd keep pepsi max on hand so when I really wanted a pop, it would suffice, so I'd have maybe one a week.
Well for the past month or so I've pretty much had a pepsi max each night with dinner. So I decided to stop and see if that made an impact on my throwing up, thinking maybe it wasn't exactly morning sickness, but more like the pop was aggravating my acid reflux. I don't think I had any on Thursday and none today, but I did have one last night with dinner since we went out, and there were no other carb free options...well ok, I guess I could have had water. But I don't know if drinking pop last night would make me throw up tonight.
I won't drink any more though and see if it makes any difference. I do have a prescription for Zofran that I never had filled....I hated the idea of taking yet another daily pill when I was only throwing up every 1-2 weeks...but if this multiple times a week thing is going to be the new norm, I just might have to fill it. Wow that was a lot of talking about throwing up.
My dad made Kayla a little Christmas tree so I took it out to the cemetery today. I felt fine on the way there, but as soon as I got to her grave I lost it. I cried a little at her grave, but when I went to leave, I just sat in my car and sobbed for a while. It's so unfair, I shouldn't have to take my daughter a christmas tree at the cemetery.
Here is the tree, it's so adorable, despite how sad it makes me.
Not that I enjoy throwing up, but it's over pretty quick...the nausea hits and either goes away quickly or I throw up and it's done. But there is so much pressure on my face when I puke, the blood vessels in my face break so I am all blotchy for a few days after. It kind of looks like I have a 5 o'clock shadow all over my face. I thought maybe it was the pop. When I first was diagnosed with GD I gave up the pop since one can has the same amount of carbs that I can have for a meal. But I'd keep pepsi max on hand so when I really wanted a pop, it would suffice, so I'd have maybe one a week.
Well for the past month or so I've pretty much had a pepsi max each night with dinner. So I decided to stop and see if that made an impact on my throwing up, thinking maybe it wasn't exactly morning sickness, but more like the pop was aggravating my acid reflux. I don't think I had any on Thursday and none today, but I did have one last night with dinner since we went out, and there were no other carb free options...well ok, I guess I could have had water. But I don't know if drinking pop last night would make me throw up tonight.
I won't drink any more though and see if it makes any difference. I do have a prescription for Zofran that I never had filled....I hated the idea of taking yet another daily pill when I was only throwing up every 1-2 weeks...but if this multiple times a week thing is going to be the new norm, I just might have to fill it. Wow that was a lot of talking about throwing up.
My dad made Kayla a little Christmas tree so I took it out to the cemetery today. I felt fine on the way there, but as soon as I got to her grave I lost it. I cried a little at her grave, but when I went to leave, I just sat in my car and sobbed for a while. It's so unfair, I shouldn't have to take my daughter a christmas tree at the cemetery.
Here is the tree, it's so adorable, despite how sad it makes me.
Friday, December 6, 2013
Classes- 25 wks 1 day
I'm sick again...it's actually not too bad, I'm mostly just mildly conjested with the occasional runny nose. Everyone is hacking at work, so I'm praying this doesn't turn into whatever they all have. My biggest complaint though is that it's keeping me from sleeping. The last two nights it's taken me forever to fall asleep and then I toss and turn all night. I am really hoping it's from the cold anyway....everyone on my March board says how much trouble they're having sleeping, and quite honesty I never sleep better than when I'm pregnant.
Yeah I occasionally get woken up by round ligament pain or just the discomfort of having to roll over without actually rolling on my tummy, and getting up between 3 and 5 to pee...but other than that, I am often asleep within a minute or two of laying down, which almost never happens ordinarily, and I just sleep really well through out the night. So if this recent development of not sleeping well isn't just due to my cold, and my amazing pregnancy sleep is over, I just may cry. I know many sleepless nights await me, so I really want to sleep well for the next three months.
Ryan and I are taking some baby classes next week. Well, I'm taking two, but I gave him permission to only do one. The infant care class is already three hours Wednesday night, so I let him off the hook for the two hour nursing class the next night. It would be nice if he came to both, but I really don't forsee a lot of men being at the nursing one and it would likely be very uncomfortable for him. I'm pretty excited for the classes, I hope they're as useful as I anticipate them to be. I'm curious to ask the teacher a question that has been nagging me. After Kayla was born my milk never came in, and I always just assumed it was because it was so early. But I've since heard from plenty of loss moms whose milk came in with deliveries even earlier than mine.
It could still be hit and miss with delivery that early I guess, but I can't help but be a little concerned that it means I will have issue with supply this time too. But we'll see what my teacher says. I was laying here watching TV and Boo was kicking pretty hard, making my stomach jump, so I tried recording it so I could show Ryan. She never does it when he's around. So she must have known I was taping it to show daddy because she wouldn't do it while I was recording. I would give up and a minute later she would kick. Only 25 weeks in the womb and she's already a little stinker!
Yeah I occasionally get woken up by round ligament pain or just the discomfort of having to roll over without actually rolling on my tummy, and getting up between 3 and 5 to pee...but other than that, I am often asleep within a minute or two of laying down, which almost never happens ordinarily, and I just sleep really well through out the night. So if this recent development of not sleeping well isn't just due to my cold, and my amazing pregnancy sleep is over, I just may cry. I know many sleepless nights await me, so I really want to sleep well for the next three months.
Ryan and I are taking some baby classes next week. Well, I'm taking two, but I gave him permission to only do one. The infant care class is already three hours Wednesday night, so I let him off the hook for the two hour nursing class the next night. It would be nice if he came to both, but I really don't forsee a lot of men being at the nursing one and it would likely be very uncomfortable for him. I'm pretty excited for the classes, I hope they're as useful as I anticipate them to be. I'm curious to ask the teacher a question that has been nagging me. After Kayla was born my milk never came in, and I always just assumed it was because it was so early. But I've since heard from plenty of loss moms whose milk came in with deliveries even earlier than mine.
It could still be hit and miss with delivery that early I guess, but I can't help but be a little concerned that it means I will have issue with supply this time too. But we'll see what my teacher says. I was laying here watching TV and Boo was kicking pretty hard, making my stomach jump, so I tried recording it so I could show Ryan. She never does it when he's around. So she must have known I was taping it to show daddy because she wouldn't do it while I was recording. I would give up and a minute later she would kick. Only 25 weeks in the womb and she's already a little stinker!
Tuesday, December 3, 2013
Will she be a St. Paddy's baby?-24 wks 5 days
I had a great appointment today, I got my favorite doctor. The other one that I usually see is growing on me, but I still have my favorite, the one that delivered Kayla. She's just so nice and comforting and down to earth. The guy doctor that I don't like was like, don't cheat on Thanksgiving, don't cheat on Thanksgiving. I get it, and I did very well, my numbers were great, but I cannot promise that Christmas will go as well. My MIL puts out an amazing spread, and I just don't know if I will be able to avoid it all.
So I told my doctor that I did well on Thanksgiving, but a few days later wasn't great and she was like well, who doesn't cheat now and again? She said I had a couple of elevated numbers but some fluctuation is normal, and it's probably diet related. Plus I lost 2 pounds since my last appointment so she was very happy about that. I forgot to weigh myself this past Friday at home, but as of the week before I am still down 7 pounds since I got pregnant. I'm very proud of myself, I may make it the entire pregnancy without gaining any weight.
So she did a pelvic and said my cervix felt good and the stitch was relaxed. For whatever reason the guy doctor didn't see the need to schedule me for an ultrasound today but she said she would like to get me back on the schedule of having an ultrasound and a pelvic every two weeks. She also said they'll do a growth check ultrasound every 4 to 6 weeks, so I am happy to hear that I'll get to see Boo a few more times before she's born.
Speaking of, I found out today that since I am insulin dependent I will be induced in my 39th week, so the week of March 17th. They induce Monday through Thursday so she said we can pick the day...it doesn't really matter to me except I would really like her to deliver Boo, so when she is on will basically be our deciding factor. I am a little nervous since I've heard contractions get stronger faster, and are closer together with pitocin...but I've never had any desire to go med free, so hopefully I can get an epi once they are too bad and I'll be one of the lucky ones that responds well to induction.
Though I have to say, it does kind of make me happy that we'll know when everything is happening. It made me a little nervous to think of just working till the end, not knowing when it will happen and have to determine when to go. It won't be scheduled until closer to the time, but I can pretty much say my last day of work will be Friday March 14th, and we can enjoy the final weekend just the two of us and then go in hopefully relaxed and calm whichever day we schedule it for.
It's kind of cool knowing Boo's birthday will be March 17th, 18th, 19th, or 20th (or 21st I suppose). The only downfall is we will definitely not make the deadline so that I'll get paid for the entire 12 weeks off work, I'll only get paid for 6. But we can afford for me to not get paid for the last 6, and the amount of time I get off is more important....getting paid for the whole time would be nice, but it's not the end of the world, and getting Boo here healthy and well is the most important thing.
And the best thing of today, I felt what I am pretty sure was Boo having hiccups for the first time. At first I thought they were kicks, but by the 3rd or 4th rhythmic "kick" I was like, it's hiccups! They lasted for about 2-3 minutes, so I am pretty sure that's what they were. I knew you could feel your baby have the hiccups, but I hadn't yet so I wasn't sure I would know it, but it was pretty obvious. I immediately texted Ryan to tell him, and he was like how do you know that?? He didn't know you could feel their hiccups. My mom said I used to get them all the time when she was pregnant with me.
So I told my doctor that I did well on Thanksgiving, but a few days later wasn't great and she was like well, who doesn't cheat now and again? She said I had a couple of elevated numbers but some fluctuation is normal, and it's probably diet related. Plus I lost 2 pounds since my last appointment so she was very happy about that. I forgot to weigh myself this past Friday at home, but as of the week before I am still down 7 pounds since I got pregnant. I'm very proud of myself, I may make it the entire pregnancy without gaining any weight.
So she did a pelvic and said my cervix felt good and the stitch was relaxed. For whatever reason the guy doctor didn't see the need to schedule me for an ultrasound today but she said she would like to get me back on the schedule of having an ultrasound and a pelvic every two weeks. She also said they'll do a growth check ultrasound every 4 to 6 weeks, so I am happy to hear that I'll get to see Boo a few more times before she's born.
Speaking of, I found out today that since I am insulin dependent I will be induced in my 39th week, so the week of March 17th. They induce Monday through Thursday so she said we can pick the day...it doesn't really matter to me except I would really like her to deliver Boo, so when she is on will basically be our deciding factor. I am a little nervous since I've heard contractions get stronger faster, and are closer together with pitocin...but I've never had any desire to go med free, so hopefully I can get an epi once they are too bad and I'll be one of the lucky ones that responds well to induction.
Though I have to say, it does kind of make me happy that we'll know when everything is happening. It made me a little nervous to think of just working till the end, not knowing when it will happen and have to determine when to go. It won't be scheduled until closer to the time, but I can pretty much say my last day of work will be Friday March 14th, and we can enjoy the final weekend just the two of us and then go in hopefully relaxed and calm whichever day we schedule it for.
It's kind of cool knowing Boo's birthday will be March 17th, 18th, 19th, or 20th (or 21st I suppose). The only downfall is we will definitely not make the deadline so that I'll get paid for the entire 12 weeks off work, I'll only get paid for 6. But we can afford for me to not get paid for the last 6, and the amount of time I get off is more important....getting paid for the whole time would be nice, but it's not the end of the world, and getting Boo here healthy and well is the most important thing.
And the best thing of today, I felt what I am pretty sure was Boo having hiccups for the first time. At first I thought they were kicks, but by the 3rd or 4th rhythmic "kick" I was like, it's hiccups! They lasted for about 2-3 minutes, so I am pretty sure that's what they were. I knew you could feel your baby have the hiccups, but I hadn't yet so I wasn't sure I would know it, but it was pretty obvious. I immediately texted Ryan to tell him, and he was like how do you know that?? He didn't know you could feel their hiccups. My mom said I used to get them all the time when she was pregnant with me.
Monday, December 2, 2013
Stress lowered- 24 wks 4 days
I don't know if it's a coincidence, or if it really was physical manisfestations of emotional stress, but ever since we passed our loss milestone, and V day, I feel so much better, both emotionally and physically. I've been less tired, I've barely felt any cramping and I just feel so full of hope. I'd say it's probably a little of both, stress can do some nasty things.
Boo has also been kicking a lot harder lately, it just started the last couple of days. She has her "evening kicks" where it's a quick jab higher up on my stomach and then her "all day long kicks". These ones are funny because they aren't quick jabs or kicks...it feels like she just has her feet on me, and then moves them around so I feel constant pressure for a few minutes here and there, kinda like the way someone might put their feet on the seat in front of them at the movies.
I giggle when I picture it, I see her with her feet on me, just kind of pushing away at me while she marvels at her hands or something like that. Ryan and I finished our registry on Sunday...I am glad I did most of it online because it wasn't as fun this time. But it's done, so that's another thing I can cross off my list. I'm shocked at how big and bulky the jogging stroller is that we wanted....but I do want a jogging stroller and we're kind of partial to Graco. So it's a good thing we're also getting the stroller frame for everyday use, and then we can just use the big stroller once she is too big to be in the bucket, and for stuff like going to the Zoo. I could always get an umberalla stroller too for the days when I don't want to haul the big one around. It seems like a waste to have all of these different strollers, but I do thing the jogger will be really nice for when we do need it. It's got huge air filled tires, so if we ever go someplace outdoors without sidewalks we won't be those people trying to push the little plastic wheels through gravel.
I ordered the crib and mattress today...I was hoping for a good cyber Monday deal, but it was only about $10 cheaper than usual. The dresser was more deeply discounted, I think about $70 off, but I'm more excited about getting the crib right now. It will be so weird to have a crib in our house.
My shower planners set the shower date for February 1st....I'm so excited for it. I also finally found a dress. It's a cowl neck (I hate that term) jersey dress. These swollen piggies aren't getting into heels anytime soon, and it looks like the perfect dress to wear with black tights and a chunkier heel. I got it the other day and it fits great and is so comfortable! I can't wait for my shower.
I see my doctor tomorrow....I've done well going two weeks in between instead of going weekly, but I'm ready to go back. I just wish it was for an ultrasound so I could see my Boo. But Ryan and I decided to do a 4D ultrasound in January, so if I don't see her again until then, at least we'll have that to look forward to.
Boo has also been kicking a lot harder lately, it just started the last couple of days. She has her "evening kicks" where it's a quick jab higher up on my stomach and then her "all day long kicks". These ones are funny because they aren't quick jabs or kicks...it feels like she just has her feet on me, and then moves them around so I feel constant pressure for a few minutes here and there, kinda like the way someone might put their feet on the seat in front of them at the movies.
I giggle when I picture it, I see her with her feet on me, just kind of pushing away at me while she marvels at her hands or something like that. Ryan and I finished our registry on Sunday...I am glad I did most of it online because it wasn't as fun this time. But it's done, so that's another thing I can cross off my list. I'm shocked at how big and bulky the jogging stroller is that we wanted....but I do want a jogging stroller and we're kind of partial to Graco. So it's a good thing we're also getting the stroller frame for everyday use, and then we can just use the big stroller once she is too big to be in the bucket, and for stuff like going to the Zoo. I could always get an umberalla stroller too for the days when I don't want to haul the big one around. It seems like a waste to have all of these different strollers, but I do thing the jogger will be really nice for when we do need it. It's got huge air filled tires, so if we ever go someplace outdoors without sidewalks we won't be those people trying to push the little plastic wheels through gravel.
I ordered the crib and mattress today...I was hoping for a good cyber Monday deal, but it was only about $10 cheaper than usual. The dresser was more deeply discounted, I think about $70 off, but I'm more excited about getting the crib right now. It will be so weird to have a crib in our house.
My shower planners set the shower date for February 1st....I'm so excited for it. I also finally found a dress. It's a cowl neck (I hate that term) jersey dress. These swollen piggies aren't getting into heels anytime soon, and it looks like the perfect dress to wear with black tights and a chunkier heel. I got it the other day and it fits great and is so comfortable! I can't wait for my shower.
I see my doctor tomorrow....I've done well going two weeks in between instead of going weekly, but I'm ready to go back. I just wish it was for an ultrasound so I could see my Boo. But Ryan and I decided to do a 4D ultrasound in January, so if I don't see her again until then, at least we'll have that to look forward to.
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