I have one nerve left and this guy in the cube across the aisle is totally getting on it. He taps his foot all.day.long. When he isn't tapping his foot, he his kicking his cubicle wall, when he's not doing that, he talks non-stop. Him and the guy behind him talk music all friggin' day long. Ok I get it, they like music, they like classic (read, old guy) rock n' roll....but how can you seriously talk about it all day everyday?
It's all I can do to not just scream, will you stop making fucking noise!? But that doesn't even bother me as much as the fact that NO ONE else seems bothered by it. Even when he's kicking the wall and it's making a reverberating noise. I've even tried pointing it out to people and they still don't hear it if they're not paying attention. This bothered me long before I was pregnant too, but now it's driving me absolutely insane. I have daydreams of clobbering him over the head with one of those big clubs like in cartoons.
We're changing our seats around soon, for the 8th damn time in 5 years...I'll be a little further away from him, but then I'll be back in line, and ear shot of the most awful woman on earth. Honestly I think I would take foot tapper over her. She's loud, obnoxious, and has horrible grammar ("I seen it", and "I took a pitcher" (picture)). Not to mention she loves to just hear herself talk all day, makes fun of people constantly and talks in different voices to impersonate people. I thought I had died and gone to Heaven when I was moved here, there is enough cubes and a big pillar in the way that I can block out her voice, but in my new seat I am sure she will come in loud and clear. I only got to enjoy this peace for a few short months. I am not cut out to work in a cube farm, I need my own sound proof office where I can't hear a damn thing.
Friday, December 28, 2012
Lab results- 9 wks 4 days
So I did my 24 urine on Christmas day, took it to the lab the next day and did my fasting glucose test. The nurse called with my results today....my urine had an eleveated amount of protein in it, but I am currently on meds for a bladder infection (which is weird because I have no symptoms for it) and she said the meds could cause this so they want to repeat it. Great, I have no more days off coming up so I'll have to do it on a Sunday and drop it off at the lab on Monday morning. The lab doesn't open until 8am which is when I have to be at work so I'll have to come in late.
Once I share my news at work I have no problem coming in late for appointments because everyone knows pregnancy comes with a lot of doctor appointments. I am even fine with sharing with my boss that I am seeing a high risk doctor and may have a few more appointments than normal. But until then, I hate asking for time off, especially since I have a new boss starting next week. I don't want him to think I am a slacker, but I am also not ready to share yet.
So my glucose test came back excellent she said; I didn't ask but I will when I see the doctor, but I am assuming for now that means I am not diabetic. And if I can get on a healthy diet I should be ok....after all this junk food that's been shoved in my face lately, I am actually excited to go get some fruits and vegetables tomorrow. I also do not have hep b or c or HIV which isn't a shocker, and I am not anemic. She said my levels for that are great and better than her and she isn't even pregnant. She's looking into whether or not my insurance will cover a glucometer, she said often they don't if you're not on insulin. I'll have to get clarification on that...if they think I need one is that just to keep things in check so I don't become diabetic, or am I diabetic but just not bad enough to be on insulin?
So I am scheduled for my NT scan on the 14th but my husband and I discussed it, I don't think we'll be doing it. We aren't thrilled at how inconclusive the results can be....I get that for the vast population, it's fairly accurate but I don't like that a negative result still doesn't guarantee the baby is ok and a positive result doesn't guarantee the baby has something wrong. It wouldn't change what we would do anyway, unless my life was actually in danger, we would not terminate if something was wrong, so I don't see the point of taking on any potential worry. I would also not take the risk, no matter how small, of a miscarriage to have an amnio for further testing if something did show up.
I am a little annoyed though that the doctor's office didn't really explain any of it. It wasn't until a few days after they scheduled me for it that I realized what it was. They just said my next ultrasound, they didn't say what they would be looking for and that it is optional. They gave me a pamphlet but it's obviously written by the labs that adminster the test since it sounds like a commericial, totally pushing the woman to have it. I see my doctor a week before the test so I need to ask more about it.
The only reason I am dissapointed about not having it is I was looking forward to another ultrasound. By then it will have been about a month since my last, and if I don't have it, my next ultrasound won't be until the 18 week anatomy scan. So I am wondering if I could still have the ultrasound, just don't do any of the actual testing or whatever for downs. Not sure if that's possible but it doesn't hurt to ask I guess.
Once I share my news at work I have no problem coming in late for appointments because everyone knows pregnancy comes with a lot of doctor appointments. I am even fine with sharing with my boss that I am seeing a high risk doctor and may have a few more appointments than normal. But until then, I hate asking for time off, especially since I have a new boss starting next week. I don't want him to think I am a slacker, but I am also not ready to share yet.
So my glucose test came back excellent she said; I didn't ask but I will when I see the doctor, but I am assuming for now that means I am not diabetic. And if I can get on a healthy diet I should be ok....after all this junk food that's been shoved in my face lately, I am actually excited to go get some fruits and vegetables tomorrow. I also do not have hep b or c or HIV which isn't a shocker, and I am not anemic. She said my levels for that are great and better than her and she isn't even pregnant. She's looking into whether or not my insurance will cover a glucometer, she said often they don't if you're not on insulin. I'll have to get clarification on that...if they think I need one is that just to keep things in check so I don't become diabetic, or am I diabetic but just not bad enough to be on insulin?
So I am scheduled for my NT scan on the 14th but my husband and I discussed it, I don't think we'll be doing it. We aren't thrilled at how inconclusive the results can be....I get that for the vast population, it's fairly accurate but I don't like that a negative result still doesn't guarantee the baby is ok and a positive result doesn't guarantee the baby has something wrong. It wouldn't change what we would do anyway, unless my life was actually in danger, we would not terminate if something was wrong, so I don't see the point of taking on any potential worry. I would also not take the risk, no matter how small, of a miscarriage to have an amnio for further testing if something did show up.
I am a little annoyed though that the doctor's office didn't really explain any of it. It wasn't until a few days after they scheduled me for it that I realized what it was. They just said my next ultrasound, they didn't say what they would be looking for and that it is optional. They gave me a pamphlet but it's obviously written by the labs that adminster the test since it sounds like a commericial, totally pushing the woman to have it. I see my doctor a week before the test so I need to ask more about it.
The only reason I am dissapointed about not having it is I was looking forward to another ultrasound. By then it will have been about a month since my last, and if I don't have it, my next ultrasound won't be until the 18 week anatomy scan. So I am wondering if I could still have the ultrasound, just don't do any of the actual testing or whatever for downs. Not sure if that's possible but it doesn't hurt to ask I guess.
Saturday, December 22, 2012
OB Nurse- 8 wks 5 days
So I had my first appt Friday with the OB nurse. It was kind of odd, just because they are all confused as to whether or not I am diabetic. I thought it was clear that I was being sent there because of my risk for developing gestational diabetes, but they all seemed to think I was already diabetic but then didn't think so based on my chart. So the entire appointment consisted of peeing in a cup, and answering a million questions that were on the new patient forms that I had filled out a brought with me. Seriously? I know that isn't the OB nurses' only job, but wouldn't intake appts be a lot more productive if they didn't spend the entire time asking all the same questions I already answered?
So the good news of the appt was that they want me to try lose weight. I didn't think it was safe to, but as long as it's not drastic and it's monitored, it's fine. So that makes me happy since I was really worried about gaining too much, and while I am thrilled I got pregnant so quickly once things started working again, I was a little bummed that I thought I couldn't keep trying to lose. I forgot to ask how much they would like to see me lose. I would imagine not more than 10 or 15, but anything would help. The only downside to it is Christmas is in two days....ha, great time to get back to my diet.
I did well with breakfast and lunch today, but my brother came over tonight and we got Chinese to watch the Dexter finale. I had already seen it of course but he hadn't. But the good news is I don't see my doctor again (well, for the first time since I only saw the nurse) until the week after Christmas so maybe if I do well enough the week after it will show at least a pound loss.
So they're sending me for all of these tests to see if I am actually diabetic or not. So yay, guess what I get to do on Christmas day? I get to pee in a jug all day. It wouldn't be a big deal, I've had quite a lot of experience peeing in things for the last 18 months, but the bad thing is, we'll be at my inlaws most of the day. And it has to stay refrigerated, so I have to take my jug o' pee to my inlaws and keep it in their fridge. Also when I pee, I have to take my whole arsenal to the bathroom with me. They gave me this huge jug, plus this tray thing that I put between the toilet lids so I can just pee into it without trying to aim into a little glass. Thank God they have a fridge in their garage so at least I don't have to put it in the kitchen fridge, yuck! It should also be cold enough that I could keep it outside. And I am lucky that their guest bath is right off the door to the garage, so I can hopefully discreetly grab it out of the fridge and run to the bathroom without anyone being the wiser. I will of course tell my MIL that there is pee in her fridge though, lol. Nope, that's not apple juice!
So the good news of the appt was that they want me to try lose weight. I didn't think it was safe to, but as long as it's not drastic and it's monitored, it's fine. So that makes me happy since I was really worried about gaining too much, and while I am thrilled I got pregnant so quickly once things started working again, I was a little bummed that I thought I couldn't keep trying to lose. I forgot to ask how much they would like to see me lose. I would imagine not more than 10 or 15, but anything would help. The only downside to it is Christmas is in two days....ha, great time to get back to my diet.
I did well with breakfast and lunch today, but my brother came over tonight and we got Chinese to watch the Dexter finale. I had already seen it of course but he hadn't. But the good news is I don't see my doctor again (well, for the first time since I only saw the nurse) until the week after Christmas so maybe if I do well enough the week after it will show at least a pound loss.
So they're sending me for all of these tests to see if I am actually diabetic or not. So yay, guess what I get to do on Christmas day? I get to pee in a jug all day. It wouldn't be a big deal, I've had quite a lot of experience peeing in things for the last 18 months, but the bad thing is, we'll be at my inlaws most of the day. And it has to stay refrigerated, so I have to take my jug o' pee to my inlaws and keep it in their fridge. Also when I pee, I have to take my whole arsenal to the bathroom with me. They gave me this huge jug, plus this tray thing that I put between the toilet lids so I can just pee into it without trying to aim into a little glass. Thank God they have a fridge in their garage so at least I don't have to put it in the kitchen fridge, yuck! It should also be cold enough that I could keep it outside. And I am lucky that their guest bath is right off the door to the garage, so I can hopefully discreetly grab it out of the fridge and run to the bathroom without anyone being the wiser. I will of course tell my MIL that there is pee in her fridge though, lol. Nope, that's not apple juice!
Reminds me of the time my nephew got ahold of Ryan's spit bottle. He was spitting in a coke bottle, so of course, it looked like (disgusting) coke to a 2-year-old. Ryan kept moving it away from him, but he must not have been paying attention one time cause suddenly my nephew start's crying...like screaming and crying, and throwing up. We couldn't figure it out until someone saw the bottle nearby. Ugh, barf.....poor baby. I cannot believe Ryan's sister didn't rip him a new one for not being more careful.
So I am wondering, for the sake of being discreet, if it would be easier to leave the jug o' pee and the tray at home, and just bring the pee cup that I used for TTC, and some other smallish container to store it in. I got pretty good at peeing in that cup with no major spillage. I guess the question though is what other container could I take, that I am fine with ruining. I'll put my husband on the job, he is good at solving strange problems like that. Ah, I think I got it....an empty Gatorade bottle. I could rinse it out really well and run boiling water in it to make sure there are no traces left of Gatorade. It's small so it would be more discreet, and has a wide mouth so I can pour the pee into it easily from the pee cup. I'm a genius.
So after peeing in a jug all day on Christmas, I have to take it to the lab on Wednesday. Good thing I am off work that day, but it's too bad I have to keep running back and forth between here and the lab. I was supposed to see the doctor that day, but they had to reschedule for a week later, so at least that is one less thing I have to do. So that is my fasting glucose test. When I wake up, I can't eat anything, I have to go to the lab, give them my pee and get bloodwork done. Go home and eat, and then wait two hours and go back to the lab for more bloodwork. I have to repeat that on Saturday.....hopefully that's all the testing I have to do for them to determine whether or not I am diabetic, which I really don't think I am. But at my last bloodwork before I got pregant, I was borderline, so I suppose it's possible I have crossed the line since then but I hope not.
Whew, so much testing to do. I'll be glad when it's done.
So I am wondering, for the sake of being discreet, if it would be easier to leave the jug o' pee and the tray at home, and just bring the pee cup that I used for TTC, and some other smallish container to store it in. I got pretty good at peeing in that cup with no major spillage. I guess the question though is what other container could I take, that I am fine with ruining. I'll put my husband on the job, he is good at solving strange problems like that. Ah, I think I got it....an empty Gatorade bottle. I could rinse it out really well and run boiling water in it to make sure there are no traces left of Gatorade. It's small so it would be more discreet, and has a wide mouth so I can pour the pee into it easily from the pee cup. I'm a genius.
So after peeing in a jug all day on Christmas, I have to take it to the lab on Wednesday. Good thing I am off work that day, but it's too bad I have to keep running back and forth between here and the lab. I was supposed to see the doctor that day, but they had to reschedule for a week later, so at least that is one less thing I have to do. So that is my fasting glucose test. When I wake up, I can't eat anything, I have to go to the lab, give them my pee and get bloodwork done. Go home and eat, and then wait two hours and go back to the lab for more bloodwork. I have to repeat that on Saturday.....hopefully that's all the testing I have to do for them to determine whether or not I am diabetic, which I really don't think I am. But at my last bloodwork before I got pregant, I was borderline, so I suppose it's possible I have crossed the line since then but I hope not.
Whew, so much testing to do. I'll be glad when it's done.
Tuesday, December 18, 2012
2nd picture- 8 wks 1 day
I can't believe how much baby B has grown in just two weeks. Compared to the first picture he/she is so much bigger. This picture is kind of hard to make out the shape though....I think if you turn it upside down, it kind of looks like a rubber duckie with a rider. I was kind of hoping for a better picture since this is the one we'll be giving my SIL and BIL in their frames to announce, but it's healthy, I'll take it.
So I told my best friend about the new OB I'll be going to and she said her OB was in the hospital too so she asked the names. Turns out on of the women was the one that delivered her first! I'm so excited...I was a little nervous about going to a new office, but now I am so excited to possibly get her old doc since she loved her.
I really need to wrap presents, but since cooking dinner I am whipped. I was just lectured about overdoing it, so I had better go lay down.
Second Ultrasound- 8 wks 1 day
The ultrasound went great, eveything is fine and I am still measuring at 8 weeks on the nose. The baby looks huge compared to last time. If you turn the picture upside down it kind of looks like a rubber duckie with a rider on it, lol. Last time the yolk sac was so much bigger than baby but this time baby B dwarfs it.
Ryan went with me, which helped a lot, I know I would have been super nervous had he not been there. The tech paused for like 5 seconds before saying she saw a fetus and a heartbeat so of course I freaked for that whole five seconds, wondering if she was seeing something wrong. But everythng is fine and she didn't see any bleeding either.
When I was done she congratulated me and gave me a hug :)
After that we met with the doctor and I got a lecture for overdoing it on Saturday and spotting. I really didn't think walking and doing a few loads of laundry was overdoing it, but I guess in early pregnancy when you have a history of loss it's really important to rest. I'll have to really take it easy this week in cleaning the house for Christmas eve, I'll have to just do a little at a time.
So the doctor answered some of my questions....I told her it's tapering off but last week I was so hungry I wanted to eat a whole cow. I said I was trying hard to eat healthy but it's hard when you're that hungry. She just smiled and said welcome to pregnancy, so I guess maybe it's not as big of a deal to eat poorly if I am really that hungry. It sounds like it's normal.
So she talked about how this was our last appointment, but she suggested I see a high risk doctor instead of my regular OB's office. Since I am at a risk for developing gestational diabetes she says it's a good idea that I just see them so we can keep on top of it. The office is in the hospital as well, just three floors up from my RE, so when I left there I went upstairs and made my appt with them, I go this Friday to meet with the nurse. I have to remember to call my OB and cancel my appointments made with them. I am a little sad just since I am familiar with my gyn's office but I would have had to get a new OB anyway since my gyn doesn't deliver babies anymore. And it is easier to get to work from the hospital than my gyn's office.
Whew, now I can relax some....I hope I like my new OB. There are four doctors in that office, two women and two men. I would definitely feel more comfortable with one of the women. Both women have a short video on their bio so I'll watch it when I get home, maybe that will help me decide between the two of them, however likely I'll meet with all four in case my doctor isn't available on the day baby B decideds to come into the world.
I'll post a pic when I get home :)
Ryan went with me, which helped a lot, I know I would have been super nervous had he not been there. The tech paused for like 5 seconds before saying she saw a fetus and a heartbeat so of course I freaked for that whole five seconds, wondering if she was seeing something wrong. But everythng is fine and she didn't see any bleeding either.
When I was done she congratulated me and gave me a hug :)
After that we met with the doctor and I got a lecture for overdoing it on Saturday and spotting. I really didn't think walking and doing a few loads of laundry was overdoing it, but I guess in early pregnancy when you have a history of loss it's really important to rest. I'll have to really take it easy this week in cleaning the house for Christmas eve, I'll have to just do a little at a time.
So the doctor answered some of my questions....I told her it's tapering off but last week I was so hungry I wanted to eat a whole cow. I said I was trying hard to eat healthy but it's hard when you're that hungry. She just smiled and said welcome to pregnancy, so I guess maybe it's not as big of a deal to eat poorly if I am really that hungry. It sounds like it's normal.
So she talked about how this was our last appointment, but she suggested I see a high risk doctor instead of my regular OB's office. Since I am at a risk for developing gestational diabetes she says it's a good idea that I just see them so we can keep on top of it. The office is in the hospital as well, just three floors up from my RE, so when I left there I went upstairs and made my appt with them, I go this Friday to meet with the nurse. I have to remember to call my OB and cancel my appointments made with them. I am a little sad just since I am familiar with my gyn's office but I would have had to get a new OB anyway since my gyn doesn't deliver babies anymore. And it is easier to get to work from the hospital than my gyn's office.
Whew, now I can relax some....I hope I like my new OB. There are four doctors in that office, two women and two men. I would definitely feel more comfortable with one of the women. Both women have a short video on their bio so I'll watch it when I get home, maybe that will help me decide between the two of them, however likely I'll meet with all four in case my doctor isn't available on the day baby B decideds to come into the world.
I'll post a pic when I get home :)
Monday, December 17, 2012
Stress again- 8 wks
I really don't want to rush through my pregnancy, but I just really can't wait to get to second tri. The freak outs and pgal brain are really getting to me. I did quite a bit on Saturday, though not that much to call it overdoing it, but maybe I did, who knows. I walked on the treadmill for 30 minutes, did several loads of laundry and went and got lunch. I had a few more errands to run but got tired so I napped, and then I wrapped a few presents.
In late afternoon I started to get crampy....it wasn't horrible cramps, they were much like the ones I got in the first couple weeks, but it was concerning me that they were back to noticeable uncomfortable cramps since they had really mellowed out the last two weeks or so. So I was back to doing the constant "paranoid check" to make sure there wasn't any spotting. And of course on one of them, two small dots of light pink blood.....I freaked out a little but not too much. I immediately told my husband and then laid in bed with my feet up. So I was in bed from 9:30 Saturday night until about 10am Sunday.
I didn't bother calling the doctor because the last time when I thought I was spotting, they said just to take it easy and rest and it's probably nothing, so I just took the same advice. When I first saw the spotting there was nothing in the toilet, and there was only a tiny thread of blood on the toilet paper. As soon as I got into bed I put in my preogesterone for the night, and I use the presseed applicators so I can get them in deeper, and there was zero blood on the applicator, so I took that as a good sign.
Since Saturday night I have not had any more spotting, but the cramps still come and go, but like I said they're not awful, just more intense than they had been recently. I am pretty sure everything is ok....maybe I just overdid it Saturday and it irritated the cervix and caused a smidge of bleeding. I am also wondering if maybe after a couple week break, I am going through another growth spurt that is causing my uterus to stretch and cramp again. I just hate that I am back to being scared everytime I go to the bathroom....I was getting so much better and now I'm back at square one.
I'm just so glad my second ultrasound is tomorrow, so I don't have to wait long to get confirmation that everything is alright. However now I am even more nervous for it than I would be. But at least Ryan can go with me.
Ugh, I just can't wait for 9:15 to get here tomorrow morning.
In late afternoon I started to get crampy....it wasn't horrible cramps, they were much like the ones I got in the first couple weeks, but it was concerning me that they were back to noticeable uncomfortable cramps since they had really mellowed out the last two weeks or so. So I was back to doing the constant "paranoid check" to make sure there wasn't any spotting. And of course on one of them, two small dots of light pink blood.....I freaked out a little but not too much. I immediately told my husband and then laid in bed with my feet up. So I was in bed from 9:30 Saturday night until about 10am Sunday.
I didn't bother calling the doctor because the last time when I thought I was spotting, they said just to take it easy and rest and it's probably nothing, so I just took the same advice. When I first saw the spotting there was nothing in the toilet, and there was only a tiny thread of blood on the toilet paper. As soon as I got into bed I put in my preogesterone for the night, and I use the presseed applicators so I can get them in deeper, and there was zero blood on the applicator, so I took that as a good sign.
Since Saturday night I have not had any more spotting, but the cramps still come and go, but like I said they're not awful, just more intense than they had been recently. I am pretty sure everything is ok....maybe I just overdid it Saturday and it irritated the cervix and caused a smidge of bleeding. I am also wondering if maybe after a couple week break, I am going through another growth spurt that is causing my uterus to stretch and cramp again. I just hate that I am back to being scared everytime I go to the bathroom....I was getting so much better and now I'm back at square one.
I'm just so glad my second ultrasound is tomorrow, so I don't have to wait long to get confirmation that everything is alright. However now I am even more nervous for it than I would be. But at least Ryan can go with me.
Ugh, I just can't wait for 9:15 to get here tomorrow morning.
Thursday, December 13, 2012
Appetite- 7 wks 3 days
I'm amazed....it's almost noon and I am not hungry for lunch. Of course that could easily change in a matter of minutes, but lately I have been starving by 11:15. I didn't even have a huge breakfast, just my usual two servings of honeynut cheerios and a cup of applesauce. Maybe the insane, insatiable hunger is tapering off. I really hope so because I don't know how I am going to keep my weight gain to a minimum when I turn into a monster and want to eat everything in sight. Come to think of it I wasn't super hungry for dinner last night either.
Tuesday was nuts....my boss took us out to lunch for her Christmas gift to us (awesome gift by the way, my old boss used to buy us stuff, let's just say her taste and the rest of the world's did not match up very well). I checked the menu the night before, there wasn't much in the way of healthy. Even salads and sandwhiches were over 1000 calories. I finally settled on half a chicken salad sandwhich and a bowl of chicken noodle soup, but that still came to like 750 calories. However on the way there, I was so stinkin' hungry if we had been in the country I might have been tempted to jump out of the car and devour a living cow right then and there. I decided my "low calorie" meal wasn't going to cut it.
Instead I had a delicious (and huge) cheeseburger with waffle fries. OMG, it was sooooo good, but honestly I wasn't all that full afterward. Not saying I wanted more, but I probably could have put away another 1/2 burger if my life depended on it. I didn't feel the slightest bit guilty either. I mean, if I devoured that huge burger and fries so easily, I am sure half a sandwhich and chicken noodle soup would have done nothing. I'm not even a big chicken noodle soup fan....
So yeah, hopefully this is a sign that I am getting back to a normal appetite. Ryan has to work both days this weekend, so maybe that means I can be productive and get to the gym both days. I have a hard time being productive when he is home, I don't know why. I think for dinner tomorrow, we need to go somewhere that has onion rings. It's the weirdest thing, since I got pregnant, onions smell sooooo good to me. I've always liked the flavor of onions, like if they're cooked in something, but never the actual onions and I always found the smell to be overpowering. But lately, yum. At lunch the other day a waitress walked by with a plate of onion rings and I wanted to follow her, so I'll have to see if they taste as good as they're smelling.
I went to the mall last night to get a new cell phone, and lookie what was right across the hall...a Motherhood Maternity store. I went in to browse for a few, the sales lady was really nice. I got such a good deal on my phone which is my Christmas present from my dad that I can afford to buy something else so I think I will get me some maternity pants this weekend. I am clearly not showing yet, but I need new black pants for work, and it doesn't make sense to buy regular ones, go to the trouble of hemming them and then do it all over again in a few months with maternity. Besides, days like this, maternity pants will be a God send. I am so bloated and uncomfortable today, and these pants are actually kind of big on me. So excited for cute maternity clothes.
Tuesday was nuts....my boss took us out to lunch for her Christmas gift to us (awesome gift by the way, my old boss used to buy us stuff, let's just say her taste and the rest of the world's did not match up very well). I checked the menu the night before, there wasn't much in the way of healthy. Even salads and sandwhiches were over 1000 calories. I finally settled on half a chicken salad sandwhich and a bowl of chicken noodle soup, but that still came to like 750 calories. However on the way there, I was so stinkin' hungry if we had been in the country I might have been tempted to jump out of the car and devour a living cow right then and there. I decided my "low calorie" meal wasn't going to cut it.
Instead I had a delicious (and huge) cheeseburger with waffle fries. OMG, it was sooooo good, but honestly I wasn't all that full afterward. Not saying I wanted more, but I probably could have put away another 1/2 burger if my life depended on it. I didn't feel the slightest bit guilty either. I mean, if I devoured that huge burger and fries so easily, I am sure half a sandwhich and chicken noodle soup would have done nothing. I'm not even a big chicken noodle soup fan....
So yeah, hopefully this is a sign that I am getting back to a normal appetite. Ryan has to work both days this weekend, so maybe that means I can be productive and get to the gym both days. I have a hard time being productive when he is home, I don't know why. I think for dinner tomorrow, we need to go somewhere that has onion rings. It's the weirdest thing, since I got pregnant, onions smell sooooo good to me. I've always liked the flavor of onions, like if they're cooked in something, but never the actual onions and I always found the smell to be overpowering. But lately, yum. At lunch the other day a waitress walked by with a plate of onion rings and I wanted to follow her, so I'll have to see if they taste as good as they're smelling.
I went to the mall last night to get a new cell phone, and lookie what was right across the hall...a Motherhood Maternity store. I went in to browse for a few, the sales lady was really nice. I got such a good deal on my phone which is my Christmas present from my dad that I can afford to buy something else so I think I will get me some maternity pants this weekend. I am clearly not showing yet, but I need new black pants for work, and it doesn't make sense to buy regular ones, go to the trouble of hemming them and then do it all over again in a few months with maternity. Besides, days like this, maternity pants will be a God send. I am so bloated and uncomfortable today, and these pants are actually kind of big on me. So excited for cute maternity clothes.
Monday, December 10, 2012
Weight- 7 wks
Arg, I know there is nothing I can do about the past, what's done is done. But I don't think there is a day that goes by that I don't kick myself for not losing this weight before now. I know hindsight is 20/20, but what was I doing all that time? Well, I know a good portion of it I was stressing out for not Oing, and then it would sabotage my weightloss because I was so stressed. But still, 18 months! I could have lost ALL of my weight in that time. We also could have got our finances straightened out and started saving money for the baby, but that's another entry.
I switched my WW goal to maintaince and I am having a harder time sticking to my goal than when I was trying to lose a pound a week. Either it's ALL in our heads (many women on the July board speak of unsatiable hunger and cravings) or nobody ever told us that hunger and cravings start so early. It can't be in my head, I mean...I know what bored eating feels like, I've had plenty of pratice. But this is actual stomach growling, uncomfortable hunger pains. And of course I do well most of the day, only to blow it later on. For breakfast I had a banana, milk and honeynut cheerios. For lunch I had a salad with chicken, and for dinner pasta salad. Ok the pasta wasn't great, but it was well within my points. But despite being stuffed from lunch, and having a snack of an apple and colby cheese around 4, I was starving while I was making dinner.
I did so well all day. In fact, when I first logged my food, I still had 11 points left for the day. Now I am certain I am in the hole. I'll be 7 weeks tomorrow. I'll hit second tri in 5 more weeks and I will be tested for gestational diabetes. I do not want to put myself through that.
So as much as I kick myself for not losing the weight before, it's absolutely stupid to continue down this path and gain more and continue to eat unhealthy. So with that being said, I am off to walk on the treadmill. Hopefully I can keep this up most days.
I switched my WW goal to maintaince and I am having a harder time sticking to my goal than when I was trying to lose a pound a week. Either it's ALL in our heads (many women on the July board speak of unsatiable hunger and cravings) or nobody ever told us that hunger and cravings start so early. It can't be in my head, I mean...I know what bored eating feels like, I've had plenty of pratice. But this is actual stomach growling, uncomfortable hunger pains. And of course I do well most of the day, only to blow it later on. For breakfast I had a banana, milk and honeynut cheerios. For lunch I had a salad with chicken, and for dinner pasta salad. Ok the pasta wasn't great, but it was well within my points. But despite being stuffed from lunch, and having a snack of an apple and colby cheese around 4, I was starving while I was making dinner.
I did so well all day. In fact, when I first logged my food, I still had 11 points left for the day. Now I am certain I am in the hole. I'll be 7 weeks tomorrow. I'll hit second tri in 5 more weeks and I will be tested for gestational diabetes. I do not want to put myself through that.
So as much as I kick myself for not losing the weight before, it's absolutely stupid to continue down this path and gain more and continue to eat unhealthy. So with that being said, I am off to walk on the treadmill. Hopefully I can keep this up most days.
Up North- 7 wks
Well we were supposed to go up north this weekend to visit my grandma and pick out our Christmas tree and cut it down (my dad has a tree farm). But my brother's girlfriend has to work Saturday so their weekend would be so limited they decided to just not go. Then I was paying bills today and things just aren't too pretty right now. It's not like going up north is super expensive, but if we can save the money we would spend on gas and eating out it makes sense to do so. My dad will just have to bring our tree home for us.
I'm bummed, but we decided to go at the end of January instead. We can ride with my brother and his gf and save some gas, and I will either be in second tri or close enough that we can tell my grandma and it will be ok if she tells others. I wanted to tell her this weekend, but my dad thought it might be hard for her to not tell. She isn't a gossip, and she hasn't "lost it" but her memory isn't what it used to be, and he thought it might be hard for her not to let it accidentally slip. So we can tell her then, and I have to say I'd much rather tell her in person.
My dad made me call her when I got engaged to tell her the news, and it was so awkward. My grandma and I don't chat on the phone, she's a woman of few words, and while I love her, we're not super close. Not like I was with my other grandma at all. So I was super nervous about calling her....I checked my phone log after the call, I think it was about one minute and 37 seconds, lol.
And not telling her myself is not an option, I said something about not telling her to my brother (I just meant not telling her right away, not in general) and his eyes got big and said "do you want to die"? Lol, my grandma does not like to hear news second hand. This will be her 15th great-grandchild! Holy moly....but really that's not a lot considering she's got 29 grandkids. So far the 14 are only from 7 grandkids. Once we're all old enough to have kids I'll bet the count will be somewhere in the 80's....I mean, if we all had two on average that would be 58.
We can also tell any aunts or uncles we run across while we're there. Unfortunately most of them will have to find out via facebook, my family is just too big to tell them all in person, but it will be nice if I can tell some while we're there.
I'm bummed, but we decided to go at the end of January instead. We can ride with my brother and his gf and save some gas, and I will either be in second tri or close enough that we can tell my grandma and it will be ok if she tells others. I wanted to tell her this weekend, but my dad thought it might be hard for her to not tell. She isn't a gossip, and she hasn't "lost it" but her memory isn't what it used to be, and he thought it might be hard for her not to let it accidentally slip. So we can tell her then, and I have to say I'd much rather tell her in person.
My dad made me call her when I got engaged to tell her the news, and it was so awkward. My grandma and I don't chat on the phone, she's a woman of few words, and while I love her, we're not super close. Not like I was with my other grandma at all. So I was super nervous about calling her....I checked my phone log after the call, I think it was about one minute and 37 seconds, lol.
And not telling her myself is not an option, I said something about not telling her to my brother (I just meant not telling her right away, not in general) and his eyes got big and said "do you want to die"? Lol, my grandma does not like to hear news second hand. This will be her 15th great-grandchild! Holy moly....but really that's not a lot considering she's got 29 grandkids. So far the 14 are only from 7 grandkids. Once we're all old enough to have kids I'll bet the count will be somewhere in the 80's....I mean, if we all had two on average that would be 58.
We can also tell any aunts or uncles we run across while we're there. Unfortunately most of them will have to find out via facebook, my family is just too big to tell them all in person, but it will be nice if I can tell some while we're there.
Sunday, December 9, 2012
First major scare- 6 wks 6 days
First, let me say everything is fine. But I about went into cardiac arrest today....I stopped at my dad's to get a few things before heading out shopping with my best friend. I had some time to kill before my friend was ready to go I used the bathroom while I was there.
I don't know what made me look....the constant "looking for blood" when going to the bathroom had seriously subsided in the last few weeks. But I don't know....it's so stupid, but sometimes I worry that the littlest thing will hurt my baby, like my cat walking on me and stepping on the baby. I know, completely irrational, and most days I can deal with it without feeling like I need to be in a bubble, but other days I feel very breakable. So anyway I looked, and to my horror there was bright red blood dripping into the toilet.
It wasn't a ton, but it was more than a drop or two, I'd say half a dozen or more. I instantly freaked out, started saying no no no no over and over.
I immediately grabbed my shit and left....I called my best friend and said I couldn't go shopping and told her why. She was really concerned, she said to call her once I knew anything. As soon as I hung up I called my husband to tell him what was happening. I was crying, I was so upset, I thought I was going through it all over again. So after I few minutes once I could compose myself, I called my RE, got the number for the oncall doctor's answering service and left a message with the receptionist. The oncall doctor called me back a few minutes later and I told him what was happening.
He said it's probably nothing, but to go home and be a "lady of leisure" as he said. Lay down with my feet up and make my husband do everything for the rest of the day. He said to call back if the bleeding got any worse, but to definitely call in the morning and give an update and they might want to do another ultrasound to make sure everything is ok.
I felt better after I talked to him but I was still nervous. As soon as I got home I used the bathroom again, there was nothing on the pad. Oh my God, I was so relieved. I cannot describe the fear I felt. I want this baby more than anything and the moments where I thought I was losing another one were so devastating. Despite being pretty certain what it was from, I decided to take it easy anyway. Maybe I didn't need it physically, but mentally I needed it badly.
My husband set up my computer in the bedroom for me and I just laid in bed and played on my computer for a while. I got hungry, and being the non-cook that my husband is, he ordered a pizza. I was really determined to eat well this week, but I decided after what I went through, pizza was very appropriate. After pizza I laid back down and took a nap. I did get up after a while and made a bunch of chicken and salad for lunches this week, but other than that I am still trying to take it pretty easy. I have to say, in retrospect I feel pretty silly and like I overreacted... but seeing it literally dripping into the toilet and the water turning red, I was certain it was bad news.
I was really looking forward to shopping with my friend, but she understood and said it's better to be safe than sorry. I think I really scared her too, she's so happy for me that I am pregnant and I know it would kill her to see me go through another loss. She texted as soon as I got home to see if I had heard anything and if there were any updates, and she told me she loved me :) I have the best friend in the world. And husband....he may really stink in the kitchen, but he took good care of me today.
I just hope this was my first and last major scare, I don't know how much my ticker can take.
I don't know what made me look....the constant "looking for blood" when going to the bathroom had seriously subsided in the last few weeks. But I don't know....it's so stupid, but sometimes I worry that the littlest thing will hurt my baby, like my cat walking on me and stepping on the baby. I know, completely irrational, and most days I can deal with it without feeling like I need to be in a bubble, but other days I feel very breakable. So anyway I looked, and to my horror there was bright red blood dripping into the toilet.
It wasn't a ton, but it was more than a drop or two, I'd say half a dozen or more. I instantly freaked out, started saying no no no no over and over.
I immediately grabbed my shit and left....I called my best friend and said I couldn't go shopping and told her why. She was really concerned, she said to call her once I knew anything. As soon as I hung up I called my husband to tell him what was happening. I was crying, I was so upset, I thought I was going through it all over again. So after I few minutes once I could compose myself, I called my RE, got the number for the oncall doctor's answering service and left a message with the receptionist. The oncall doctor called me back a few minutes later and I told him what was happening.
He said it's probably nothing, but to go home and be a "lady of leisure" as he said. Lay down with my feet up and make my husband do everything for the rest of the day. He said to call back if the bleeding got any worse, but to definitely call in the morning and give an update and they might want to do another ultrasound to make sure everything is ok.
I felt better after I talked to him but I was still nervous. As soon as I got home I used the bathroom again, there was nothing on the pad. Oh my God, I was so relieved. I cannot describe the fear I felt. I want this baby more than anything and the moments where I thought I was losing another one were so devastating. Despite being pretty certain what it was from, I decided to take it easy anyway. Maybe I didn't need it physically, but mentally I needed it badly.
My husband set up my computer in the bedroom for me and I just laid in bed and played on my computer for a while. I got hungry, and being the non-cook that my husband is, he ordered a pizza. I was really determined to eat well this week, but I decided after what I went through, pizza was very appropriate. After pizza I laid back down and took a nap. I did get up after a while and made a bunch of chicken and salad for lunches this week, but other than that I am still trying to take it pretty easy. I have to say, in retrospect I feel pretty silly and like I overreacted... but seeing it literally dripping into the toilet and the water turning red, I was certain it was bad news.
I was really looking forward to shopping with my friend, but she understood and said it's better to be safe than sorry. I think I really scared her too, she's so happy for me that I am pregnant and I know it would kill her to see me go through another loss. She texted as soon as I got home to see if I had heard anything and if there were any updates, and she told me she loved me :) I have the best friend in the world. And husband....he may really stink in the kitchen, but he took good care of me today.
I just hope this was my first and last major scare, I don't know how much my ticker can take.
Friday, December 7, 2012
One year- 6 wks 4 days
One year ago today was on of the top 10 worst days of my life, it's when we lost our first pregnancy. I of course still think about it....taking myself back to that day I can feel my heart breaking and I often think about the what if. We would have an almost 4 month old baby right now....I wonder if it was a boy or girl, though I had that dream a while back that it was a boy.
However despite the pain that this day was, I am so thankful to be pregnant today. I know today would be an absolutely awful day if not for the hope and joy that we're experiencing right now. That's not to say that this baby is replacing the other one, but being in a good place definitely helps me to not be in a really bad place today.
So, I'm trying not to dwell on it too much though...the paranoia is getting better but I am still nervous. I'll just be happy to have this milestone passed me. So it's Friday....the best, but worst day of the week. It's the best because, well of course because it is Friday. But I never feel like doing anything on Fridays, and the day just draaaaags and draaags.
I'm also really tired because I didn't fall asleep until 1:30 last night. I missed my nap and stayed up too late the last two nights, so I had to nap yesterday. Normally, a nap in the evening would ruin my sleep for the night, especially the two hour awesome nap I took yesterday. But with the first tri fatigue, I can easily take a nap and then go to bed two hours later and sleep just fine. But last night I was watching TV, I sneezed and it turned into a million sneezes and an itchy face. Usually when I go to bed the sneezes finally stop but they didn't. Anytime I would try breathing through my nose it would start them all over again and I wanted to rip my face off.
Finally I asked my husband to bring up his humidifier, so he set it up on my side of the bed and within half an hour my nose was clear and I could finally sleep. That thing was like a little miracle, I wish I had thought of it sooner. Today I feel fine...my allergies are so weird. One day I am miserable, the next I am fine. Not that I am complaining about being fine today, but I just wonder what happens to make me so sick for that time period.
However despite the pain that this day was, I am so thankful to be pregnant today. I know today would be an absolutely awful day if not for the hope and joy that we're experiencing right now. That's not to say that this baby is replacing the other one, but being in a good place definitely helps me to not be in a really bad place today.
So, I'm trying not to dwell on it too much though...the paranoia is getting better but I am still nervous. I'll just be happy to have this milestone passed me. So it's Friday....the best, but worst day of the week. It's the best because, well of course because it is Friday. But I never feel like doing anything on Fridays, and the day just draaaaags and draaags.
I'm also really tired because I didn't fall asleep until 1:30 last night. I missed my nap and stayed up too late the last two nights, so I had to nap yesterday. Normally, a nap in the evening would ruin my sleep for the night, especially the two hour awesome nap I took yesterday. But with the first tri fatigue, I can easily take a nap and then go to bed two hours later and sleep just fine. But last night I was watching TV, I sneezed and it turned into a million sneezes and an itchy face. Usually when I go to bed the sneezes finally stop but they didn't. Anytime I would try breathing through my nose it would start them all over again and I wanted to rip my face off.
Finally I asked my husband to bring up his humidifier, so he set it up on my side of the bed and within half an hour my nose was clear and I could finally sleep. That thing was like a little miracle, I wish I had thought of it sooner. Today I feel fine...my allergies are so weird. One day I am miserable, the next I am fine. Not that I am complaining about being fine today, but I just wonder what happens to make me so sick for that time period.
Tuesday, December 4, 2012
First U/S- 6 wks 1 day
It went great, everything is fine :) Whew, I feel so much better. I told the tech I was nervous, so the second she put the wand in she said I see a fetus and a heartbeat so you can relax. Wow, I felt the weight of the world lift off me when she said that. I'm really going to miss my RE's office, everyone is so nice and caring there. Not that they aren't at my OB, but I just feel like they take extra special care of me. An OB probably doesn't see as many losses or high risk as the RE does, so I can picture a tech at an OB's office not being as considerate to tell me the very second she could that everything was fine.
So she did the measuring and all that and she printed out a picture. I can't stop looking at it....when she was all done she magnified the screen and let me see, I was surprised I could see as much as I could. I mean it's definitely tiny, but I could see the shape of the baby, I thought it would still be a little speck, even magnified. Later when I text my best friend she asked if I cried, lol no. I just sat there grinning like a fool. I don't seem to cry when it is appropriate, ie being proposed to, seeing two lines on a pregnancy test, seeing my baby for the first time via ultrasound. But no, give me a sappy commercial or even a friggin Christmas song and I get all choked up. So then I met with my doctor who did another exam. She said I am measuring right at 6 weeks. By my count I am 6 weeks 1 day but I expected that I could be off by a day.
She went over all of the stuff I cannot do, cannot eat. I'm pretty bummed about the no meat and no soft cheeses things....I had read that meat was fine as long as you nuked it first, and soft cheese was fine as long as it was made with paesturized milk, but she said no, none at all. I get the argument for not being too paranoid about things, but in all honesty we worked really hard to get pregnant. I would much rather err on the side of caution....I know the risk is low, but we're talking about my baby, for a frigging sandwhich. It would be one thing if eating it just risked me getting sick and not feeling well, but when it could risk my baby's life? Um yeah, I think I can go without. I'm just going to have to do some creative shopping to find out what I can eat for lunches and easy meals. Subway and Jimmy Johns are high on my list when I want something cheap and relatively healthy.
I have my second u/s in two weeks, so I will be 8 weeks by then. Then that's it, I am released to my OB. I called them today and they got me an appointment for two days after Christmas with the OB nurse, and then a week after that I see the OB. So far both of my appointments at the OB are for 7:30 in the morning, meaning I should only be an hour late to work. Since my boss is awesome, she lets me not take a lunch that day so I don't have to use any sick or vacation time. Hopefully I can skate through most of my appointments that way, saving vacation time for my maternity leave, and sick time for those days I just cannot peel myself out of bed. I just have to remember those days will get harder and harder in my third tri, so I have to try to come in when I can so I have more time off when I am feeling awful.
I text the picture to Ryan and all my friends when I left the office, and Ryan called me a bit later. I loved how excited he sounded in his voice. He was really upbeat....granted the last pregnancy didn't last very long at all, but he didn't want to talk about it much, didn't seem very excited. So I love how geeked he is. He said he IS coming to the next ultrasound, he doesn't care if his bosses are mad :) I hate to make his work life more difficult, but he deserves a few hours off to see his baby on the ultrasound for the first time for crying out loud.
So I sent out three calendar reminders to everyone at work about my next three appointments, and immediately my friend asks if I am pregnant. I think I did a decent job of lying....I wouldn't mind telling her, but I know it's very hard to keep secrets. As much as she may intend to, I could see her blabbing to at least one person, and then that person tells someone and so on. I feel good about this pregnancy, but 6 weeks is way too early to tell everyone at work. I am sure a lot of people will suspect, but hell they've been suspecting since the day we got married, it's just how it is when you're a woman of child bearing years. And really they can suspect all they want, but I don't have to tell them until I am ready.
Ah, well I'm going to spend a nice relaxing afternoon, content for now. Yeah being at work isn't very relaxing, but not much could ruin my mood right now. Now hopefully I can stay content for at least the next 10 days or so, before nerves start setting in for my next ultrasound. I also had better enjoy it, I doubt I will get another at my OB for quite a while....definitely won't be every two weeks, that's for sure.
So she did the measuring and all that and she printed out a picture. I can't stop looking at it....when she was all done she magnified the screen and let me see, I was surprised I could see as much as I could. I mean it's definitely tiny, but I could see the shape of the baby, I thought it would still be a little speck, even magnified. Later when I text my best friend she asked if I cried, lol no. I just sat there grinning like a fool. I don't seem to cry when it is appropriate, ie being proposed to, seeing two lines on a pregnancy test, seeing my baby for the first time via ultrasound. But no, give me a sappy commercial or even a friggin Christmas song and I get all choked up. So then I met with my doctor who did another exam. She said I am measuring right at 6 weeks. By my count I am 6 weeks 1 day but I expected that I could be off by a day.
She went over all of the stuff I cannot do, cannot eat. I'm pretty bummed about the no meat and no soft cheeses things....I had read that meat was fine as long as you nuked it first, and soft cheese was fine as long as it was made with paesturized milk, but she said no, none at all. I get the argument for not being too paranoid about things, but in all honesty we worked really hard to get pregnant. I would much rather err on the side of caution....I know the risk is low, but we're talking about my baby, for a frigging sandwhich. It would be one thing if eating it just risked me getting sick and not feeling well, but when it could risk my baby's life? Um yeah, I think I can go without. I'm just going to have to do some creative shopping to find out what I can eat for lunches and easy meals. Subway and Jimmy Johns are high on my list when I want something cheap and relatively healthy.
I have my second u/s in two weeks, so I will be 8 weeks by then. Then that's it, I am released to my OB. I called them today and they got me an appointment for two days after Christmas with the OB nurse, and then a week after that I see the OB. So far both of my appointments at the OB are for 7:30 in the morning, meaning I should only be an hour late to work. Since my boss is awesome, she lets me not take a lunch that day so I don't have to use any sick or vacation time. Hopefully I can skate through most of my appointments that way, saving vacation time for my maternity leave, and sick time for those days I just cannot peel myself out of bed. I just have to remember those days will get harder and harder in my third tri, so I have to try to come in when I can so I have more time off when I am feeling awful.
I text the picture to Ryan and all my friends when I left the office, and Ryan called me a bit later. I loved how excited he sounded in his voice. He was really upbeat....granted the last pregnancy didn't last very long at all, but he didn't want to talk about it much, didn't seem very excited. So I love how geeked he is. He said he IS coming to the next ultrasound, he doesn't care if his bosses are mad :) I hate to make his work life more difficult, but he deserves a few hours off to see his baby on the ultrasound for the first time for crying out loud.
So I sent out three calendar reminders to everyone at work about my next three appointments, and immediately my friend asks if I am pregnant. I think I did a decent job of lying....I wouldn't mind telling her, but I know it's very hard to keep secrets. As much as she may intend to, I could see her blabbing to at least one person, and then that person tells someone and so on. I feel good about this pregnancy, but 6 weeks is way too early to tell everyone at work. I am sure a lot of people will suspect, but hell they've been suspecting since the day we got married, it's just how it is when you're a woman of child bearing years. And really they can suspect all they want, but I don't have to tell them until I am ready.
Ah, well I'm going to spend a nice relaxing afternoon, content for now. Yeah being at work isn't very relaxing, but not much could ruin my mood right now. Now hopefully I can stay content for at least the next 10 days or so, before nerves start setting in for my next ultrasound. I also had better enjoy it, I doubt I will get another at my OB for quite a while....definitely won't be every two weeks, that's for sure.
Monday, December 3, 2012
6 weeks
It's the only good thing about Monday's, I get to graduate to a new week! Today hasn't been a good pregnancy day. I woke up this morning at 4am to pee and when I came back to bed I had a really intense cramp. It scared the hell out of me. Now that I am awake and coherent, yes it was a bad cramp, but I think it partly had to do with how bad I had to pee, and I do tend to get more intense cramps when I get up from sitting or laying down for a while, and being that I was half asleep it probably scared me more than it otherwise would.
So then I get to work and I'm just having a major case of the Monday's. I went from cold to hot, back to cold, back to hot....I was really hungry but I felt a little nauseas. I am guessing when morning sickness really hits I'll laugh at what I had this morning, but it made me feel icky nonetheless. Everyone was getting on my nerves, and I was really tired. I just wanted to go home and crawl back into bed. Feeling this way on Monday's is not uncommon for me, so I think it was just the usual crap, plus pregnancy crap added to it.
Tomorrow is my first ultrasound. I am excited, but also very nervous. I am used to getting my betas done every 4 days and having my fears eased with good numbers, so going 9 days without confirmation has been a little rough. I wish my husband could go with me but he has to work and they're real jerks about giving him time off. I'll be ok....I just can't wait to hear them say the baby looks great, the heartbeat it strong and it's measuring at 6 weeks 1 day. Well it could be 6 weeks....I ovulated that Monday so if we conceived that same day I'll be 6 weeks 1 day, but if it wasn't until the next day I'll be 6 weeks. I know it's silly and just an estimate, but I like our EDD of July 29th and I like moving up a new week on Monday's. We shall see.
I'm so happy Monday's are easy dinner night. All I have to do when I get home is vacuum real quick, load the dishwasher, throw some noodles on to boil and then curl up in my pj's. Tomorrow can't get here soon enough. I can sleep in about an hour tomorrow since my appt isn't until 9:15 but I'll probably be too nervous/excited to sleep in.
So then I get to work and I'm just having a major case of the Monday's. I went from cold to hot, back to cold, back to hot....I was really hungry but I felt a little nauseas. I am guessing when morning sickness really hits I'll laugh at what I had this morning, but it made me feel icky nonetheless. Everyone was getting on my nerves, and I was really tired. I just wanted to go home and crawl back into bed. Feeling this way on Monday's is not uncommon for me, so I think it was just the usual crap, plus pregnancy crap added to it.
Tomorrow is my first ultrasound. I am excited, but also very nervous. I am used to getting my betas done every 4 days and having my fears eased with good numbers, so going 9 days without confirmation has been a little rough. I wish my husband could go with me but he has to work and they're real jerks about giving him time off. I'll be ok....I just can't wait to hear them say the baby looks great, the heartbeat it strong and it's measuring at 6 weeks 1 day. Well it could be 6 weeks....I ovulated that Monday so if we conceived that same day I'll be 6 weeks 1 day, but if it wasn't until the next day I'll be 6 weeks. I know it's silly and just an estimate, but I like our EDD of July 29th and I like moving up a new week on Monday's. We shall see.
I'm so happy Monday's are easy dinner night. All I have to do when I get home is vacuum real quick, load the dishwasher, throw some noodles on to boil and then curl up in my pj's. Tomorrow can't get here soon enough. I can sleep in about an hour tomorrow since my appt isn't until 9:15 but I'll probably be too nervous/excited to sleep in.
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